Broken Heart Abril 1, 2008
Posted by einn0c in The Serious Side of Me.Tags: broken heart, emotion, feeling, inner-self, love
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The Risk of Love Pebrero 13, 2008
Posted by einn0c in Family Matter, The Serious Side of Me.Tags: emotion, love, risk of love
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There is a risk involved in everything
Every time you share a smile
Every time you shed a tear
You are opening yourself up to hurt.Some people tread slowly through life,
Avoiding the closeness risk brings,
Side-stepping the things they can’t understand
Turning away from those who care too much,
Those who care stay too long,
Those who hold too tightly.
There is never an easy way to love
You can not approach it cautiously
It will not wait for you to arm yourself.
It does not care if you turn away
It is everywhere, it is everything.
Love is the greatest of all risks.
It is not reliable, it is not cautious,
It is not sympathetic
It is unprejudiced and unmerciliess.
It strikes the strongest of mind,
And brings them to their knees in one blow.
Even in the best of times, love hurts.
It hurts to need, it hurts to belong,
It hurts to be the other part of someone else,
Without either of your consent.
But, from the moment it overtakes you,
It hurts worse to be all alone. The risk of love never depletes;
It grows stronger and more dangerous with time.
But, it’s in the total surrender of all defense,
That we, no matter weak or strong,
No matter willing or captive,
No matter what, we truly experience love. Despite the many things love is not,
Outweighing it all are the things that love is.
Love is surrender without a loss.
It is a gift without the cost.
It consumes your every thought & desire,
Every breath you take.
It is the fire that fuels you
To do more than pass through life;
It urges you, instead, to live. No matter the outcome, having felt love,
You will never be the same.
It may scar your heart & soul
And Leave you only memories of forever.
Or, it may cause every day of your life
To feel like there is no need for tomorrow.
But, love is worth it. It is worth the risk…For in all of life,
Love is truly the only risk worth taking.
This poem written by an anonymous poet caught my attention while browsing the web. It depicts the kind of love my husband and I shared. Because ours is a love that never easy, a love against all odds. Nonetheless, we bravely took all risks to be with each other’s arms. And I hope we will be able to hold on until the end of time 
lonely heart Pebrero 8, 2008
Posted by einn0c in The Serious Side of Me.Tags: emotion, innner self, loneliness
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‘ This is loneliness.Oh, what a bitter thing ” – Hedfort
Nagising ako kaninang umaga na punong puno ng lungkot ang aking puso. Sa totoo lang di ko mawari ang tunay na dahilan ng dalamhating aking nararamdaman.
Dahil ba ito sa isang panaginip na di ko lang matandaan? Dahil ba ito sa isang usapan bago ako matulog kagabi? Dahil ba sa nagising akong mag-isa at wala mang lang makausap? Dahil ba ito sa mga dating alalahanin?dating problema?kasalukuyang suliranin? o magiging problema pa lang?
Hanggang sa pagpasok ko sa opisina ay dala ko ang bigat ng kalooban at sa awa ng Diyos ay wala pa rin akong nasusumpungang kasagutan. Sadya nga bang minsan dumarating sa buhay ng tao ang nakakaramdam sya ng lungkot at parang ibig nyang lumuha pero wala namang dahilan? Baka naman may problema na akong sikolohikal?!
Pero kahit gaano pa ka-negatibo ang pwersang nararamdaman ko sa oras na ito ay di ko hahayaang basta na lang ako magpapahilala at magpapakalugmok sa kalungkutan. Di ko hahayaang magapi nya ako.
Lalaban at lalaban ako!
Aaliwin ko ang sarili ko hanggang makalimutang kong malungkot ako. Magliliwaliw ako sa blogosphere hanggang kung saan ako dalhin nang aking kompyuter, makikigulo ako sa aking mga kaopisina, kakain ako anuman ang aking naisin at tititigan ko ang larawan ni verna at kasabay nito ang pagbalintataw ng kanyang kakulitan, kakyutan at kalambingan. Hanggang sa di ko mamamalayang ngumingiti na pala ako, tumatawa na pala ako. Masaya na pala ako!
Sana nga…
